This is a little blog post to everyone out there who is struggling with body image or the balance of being healthy.
I work in an industry that is based on appearance, so I am very familiar with the pressure of looking "perfect". When I started modeling, I knew right away that Iwas a bit bigger than some of my colleagues. I had done sports all my life so naturally I was more muscular. Slowly, I started wishing I was skinnier and smaller because I thought this would make me a better model (and therefore a happier person because modeling was my dream). I was affected by the pressure and the competitiveness of the industry - but mostly I was affected by my own thoughts and perfectionism.
I started working out more and more (getting up before school everyday) and restricting my calories. I constantly worried about gaining weight and keeping my body fit all for my job. I was quickly consumed by this mentally of “exterior perfection” but I never managed to loose a lot of weight (thank god). It’s a dangerous path that can lead to somuch unhappiness and that’s why I think it’s important to address.
I wasted a lot of time and energy, so I hope I can inspire somebody to do it differently.
I got to a point in my life where I was so tired and exhausted from trying to be this “perfect” girl. I got tired of all the restrictions and the constant battle with my self and my body.I wanted to enjoy life to the fullest with my friends and family instead of worrying about my exterior. But this was a scary thought for me – letting go of control can be absolutely terrifying but so worth it. I was afraid of losing my job, if I let go of the control. Luckily for me, it turned out differently.
Through the abundance of a vegan lifestyle and through a lot of working with my inner self (yoga, meditation, daily affirmations) I started to let go. It wasn't a over-night thing, I am still learning.
And that’s my point with all of this – let go of that search for the “perfect body” cause you already have it. We all have this one body that we live in, so treat it with respect, move it, nourish it daily and love it to pieces. The same goes for your mind. You're creating the world you live in through your thoughts – so make them kind, positive and loving. It doesn’t matter what shape or size you are – your body is amazing because it can carry you through your life!
Honestly, when your 80' years old and you look back at your life – would you rather have a life full of joy, good healthy food and happiness or a life where you constantly try to achieve this impossible body image?
This body image thatis portrayed through social media and the fashion industry, is not real. I’ve met many models who have achieved the "perfect body" but who ironically was deeply unhappy and depressed at the same time. Is that really the price we want to pay forhaving the “perfect body”? I would rather loose a thousand jobs as a model than being unhappy with my body and mind.
This is not to saythat you cannot be skinny and happy at the same time – of course you can! You can be super healthy and skinny as well! Just like you can be bigger,curvier, healthy and happy! It’s not about how you look, is about how you feel on the inside.
Trust me, I’ve tried a lot of crazy stupid diets (low carb, low fat, juice cleanses, soup-diets and so on!) but non of them ever truly worked. Maybe they did work and I just didn’t realize it because the goal was so unobtainable for me. It was not my body that needed to change is was my mindset.
I can say with 100% confidence that I love food and I can eat a lot (and I am not ashamed of it ;) By shifting my mindset to being kind towards my body and treating it with respect, I learned to listen to it’s natural signs and give it all the nutrients that it needs now. I eat when I am hungry and stop when I am full. I exercise to relief stress and to feel strong not to loose weight. This is not to say that I am perfect - I have bad days. The only difference is that now I am actually okay with it. I indulge when I am with myfamily and friends or whenever I feel like it. I never restrict because I know it won’t do me any good and I don't punish my body for being what it is.
My bodt is pretty awesome... just like yours.
Ironically, after letting go, my body has never been stronger or healthier than it is now (the power of plant-based food and a healthy mindset is amazing).
Please share this messageand remember:
Be kind to yourself
Love the skin you are in
Treat your body with respect